Fan Into Flame

His Love and Desire

2008-05-29T02:58:00.000-07:00

Kind of a long blog..so hang in there!

So here is a glimpse into my heart..since arriving here in S.E. Asia, the Lord has been continuing His deep work in my heart..refining, and molding me to fit according to His GREAT, perfect plan for me, His Naomi.

These past five months have been priceless, as the greatest lover of all- Jesus, has revealed more of His beauty to me, even in weakness and brokeness-His love and grace floods my heart, and I am left simply lovesick and overwhelmed--My God, how great you are!

In His great love for me, He will use anything and everything to bring me into even deeper intimacy with Him, breaking off all things that would hinder further growth in Him, for His glory. I have been brought to the place, once again--of recognizing my absolute need for His mercy and grace--and that in all things, declaring full dependance on this One!

I had to undergoe minor surgery for the first time this past February. Even in this, as I was physical broken and weak--He used it to quite literally slow me down..I knew He had led me to S.E. Asia, and all I could do for a season was pray, worship and seek His heart. Beautiful!!
As the weeks went by, the surgery wound was not healing properly, but infact opened back up. I needed to have stitches again, and there I was-- broken, weak and completely dependant on my Beloved. A great place to be by the way---once again, in and through this He has draw me so much closer to His heart, revealed even more His desires and plans for my life. This passion for prayer, worship and leading others into a deeper intimacy with our beautiful King consumes me!I long to simply be used as His vessel, and mouthpiece! I rejoice for I know it was all birthed from His Spirit, and that it is for His glory!

Just to let you know, this wound is still in the process of healing--about two months ago, when seen by another doctor in Singapore, I was given the option of having a whole second surgery. He said this was my only hope of a full recovery-basically, the wound was not closing up.
I remember so well the strong presence of the Lord in that room. I was fervently asking my God what HE wanted me to do-- and immediately, His Spirit spoke without question or hesitation to my heart.." Naomi, wait on Me. I am your Healer..I am going to use this all for my glory..wait on Me."

Ok, so I spent the rest of the day walking around singapore..seeking His heart in all of this. "Wait." Beloved, I want to be obedient- and I believe! Do whatever you want to do in and through my life! You are God and you have and will continue to use this for your glory!
So, here I am-five months into this amazing journey with my Love..and I am thrilled to say that the Healer has just recently touched my wound in a special way--after a time of praying specifically for healing, I went and saw that brand new, beautiful skin had appeared--as though, His Mighty hand had been sewing me up all along! Slowly, it is being restored and made new. As I saw this, tears flowed down my face, overwhelmed by His love, and tender care for me, His daughter. I rest in this intense, infinite love!

I pray all of you were blessed, encouraged and spurred on to trust, rest and abide in His wonderful, amazing love!!
Here is a poem I wrote at the beginning of this great journey..get lost in the ocean of God's love and desire for you...
His,
Naomi
My God,Your love for me is overwhelming.
When you see me there in a heap,
Weaping, for I am aware of my brokenness..
You move closer…I feel your hand rest upon
my back,
I feel the warmth of your presence so near.
What do I say in response?
This small heart of mine is being invaded by Glory
"I can't move, I can't live without You"
Through eyes blinded by tears,
I can see your face smiling back at me.
"Why Lord? Jesus, how can you love me?"
For a moment ago I was so aware of my weaknesses..
Now, all I know is the love of this God,
His grace so amazing, intoxicating.
I am His, and He calls me His own
Trembling in the presence of the Holy One,
I once again surrender…
His love is better than life itself,
For there is no life apart from Him
My hands, feet and every part of me
Are His for all eternity.
It is this beautiful King I am longing and aching for..
And its for His Glory and fame I am living!

2008-05-25T03:48:00.000-07:00

Hello dear friends and family! It has been 5 months since my last post--you want to know the truth as to why there was such a long absence? I forgot my password, and email that I needed in order to sign on..as well as forgeting alltogether.

I am back- and look forward to once again sharing my heart via blogging, as well as posting recent pictures of my time here in Southeast Asia.

This morning I was given the opportunity to preach at a local church. I always count it a great honor and priviledge to be used as His mouthpiece..in the same breath, it always fills me with a Holy fear of God- to whom much is given, much is required.

In all that I say and do---I desire to Glorify His Name, and simply be His vessel to fill up and use. It has been 5 months since I have experienced "American culture", and with each passing day this has become more like home. I have realized more recently, that Jesus is my home. His love and grace is what has kept me this whole time---going through a surgery in singapore, intense refining of the heart as well as learning this new language. In many ways, I have felt like a child. And in this place of being a child again--I have come to find the beauty once again in weakness, brokeness and full dependance on my Abba--Eternal Husband.

I love you all
Always seek His face,
May His Spirit fill you all with greater joy!

His,
Naomi

2008-01-31T17:39:00.000-08:00

Saying goodbye to friends and family!

Captivated

2008-01-03T14:28:00.000-08:00

Dear friends
It has been a while since my last update. The past four months have gone by so fast and it is hard to believe that my time at home is coming to a close very shortly. I am continuing to get ready for this next phase of life overseas. It is so hard to believe that in 1 week, I will be on a plane heading for Southeast Asia to live there for 16 months.

God has been so faithful and honestly I am overwhelmed at all the many ways He has provided for me! My cup is overflowing with His goodness, and faithfulness. I am currently enjoying some much needed family downtime in the north woods of NH. It is 5 below outside, and all I can do is chuckle because very soon I am going to be faced with the extreme opposite for weather conditions.....average temp on the Island is 95 degrees plus humidity! HA!

Throughout all the busyness of getting ready for my Global Internship with Bethany International, I am finding myself more than ever before recognizing my own desparate need for my God. It seems my weaknesses are being highlighted while His love, mercy and strength are yet again proving to be all I could ever need! In my weakness His power is made perfect-amen!

Do you ever ask yourself, "why God did you choose me? Who am I that You would desire to use me as Your vessel?" I can feel His smile upon my heart, as He responds quite simply, "You are my child and I created you for My glory- I delight in you, cherish you and chose to use you for My will and purposes. I rejoice when my children yield and surrender to My perfect plan for them- you are My hands and feet to reach the world."

Blessings to you all!

His,
Naomi Rae Chronis

Just like Abram

2007-09-11T15:35:00.000-07:00

I am finding myself identifying more and more with Abram in Genesis 12-- when the Lord says to Him, "Leave your people, your father's household and go to the land I will show you."

He has called me, just like Abram to abandon my own sense of security and normality, to pursue His heart above all... leaving all that I have ever known, going to a land foreign to me yet a place where the people burn on His heart constantly! What am I to say, what do I do?

All I know is I was created and exist to delight the heart of my beautiful God. I am Him, period. Looking back, He has been preparing this heart for such a journey... and i'm sure many journeys into far off distant lands.

At 9, I felt the hot tears stream down my face as an Indian pastor shared about the heartache and brokenness in his homeland... "they did what to those little girls?" A heart cry for justice, and tears for those who were lost in a world without the love of their Savior.. this was the beginning. There, only by His grace alone- He birthed in my young heart a passion and desire to simply be His vessel for communicating His heart and love to all, and to be used by His precious Holy Spirit to execute justice on earth..His hands, His feet.

So now, at 21- when most of my highschool friends are wrapping up their college years, engagement rings on their fingers- thoughts of life, a life that is predictable, and "familiar" ..
I am flying off... discovering more and more of what it means to place my full trust and security in not the "destination", rather in the One who has called me-whose name is Faithful and True.

I simply am a lover of God- secure in His love for me, Naomi. I think about where He will lead me... 2 years down the road, what will that look like? I can almost hear His gentle voice say to me, "don't be anxious for My will... simply trust Me, and continue to know that I Am your constant Companion."

How great is our God!
That was a glimpse into my heart, and I pray you were blessed and encouraged.

His,
Naomi Rae

Random

2007-08-12T19:45:00.000-07:00

Ok, so this is our last week here at Bethany College! It has been a great year, and I praise the Lord for His faithfulness and love He has continuously shown me on this journey! Hard to believe I will be home in a week!

Only He Can Satisfy

2007-08-06T16:07:00.000-07:00

My beloved has been calling me away and now He has been consuming me even more with a fire of desire for His beautiful name...Jesus. What is it about that name? He has stolen my heart- Song of Songs speaks of this relationship with our Glorious King- He is my Husband, and I am His beloved Bride!
" Arise my darling, come aways with me!" I feel this One calling to me -

All of the days of my life, may I grow ever increasingly tender in the palm of his hands- "For I am lovesick for my Beloved."